Hmm.. Where to begin.

I guess I kinda disappeared from Newgrounds after my latest upload "A Child's Game" huh..

Well the reason for that was that I was starting school, a music school, which I had really been looking forward to go to and expand my abilities. I felt I had been stuck for a while, and I was thinking that going to school would help me get un-stuck again, and let me evolve my music. I thought to my self that my main focus point of being there would be to learn more about my DAW's, orchestration and composition, but sadly those were thoughts that were lost after a few months there.

The main focus from the SCHOOLS's point of view, was to teach us to perform. Stage performance and artist development was something I had absolutely no idea they were focused on, at least not in the line I applied for, and it was something I really didn't, and still don't, have any interest in, at ALL..

So after about 6 months I quit the school, leaving with only a slightly better understanding of music theory *I've had no education in this before what so ever, everything has been self-taught*, studio recording and playing the piano. I had taken out a student loan to be able to attend the school, and that had now been eaten up completely, so I felt I'd be forced to work it off before starting anything new. Money problems have kinda been an issue for me my whole life, but I've foun ways to manage. *read: escape in to music.*

I had to find a job quickly I felt. Having a loan hanging over your head would not be good in the long run, and since I quit the school midterm, all my benefits were cut off. I took the first job I could find, and to my surprise I got a job abroad.

I'm now sitting in a room in Dublin, Ireland, out of a job again, as things didn't work out. I sold all my studio equipment to be able to move here, and I haven't made any new music in about 3 months. The only thing I have left for making any sort of music is my laptop, and some very basic VSTs. My old, beautiful setup is gone, and I've felt that I've had to abandon music to be able to earn a living. Fuck that shit..

I'm returning home next week, in the hopes of finding a part time job so I'll be able to earn enough to both pay of my loans AND my myself a new setup at home. I've experienced one of my lowest point in life while being here in Ireland, but I can't give up. I'll have to start everything from scratch again, but for the sake my artistic soul not dying, I can't give up.

It might be a while before I'll be submitting any tracks that might be at par with my old ones. For the time being you'll probably hear a lot of MIDIish and 8-bitish music, as that's the only thing I have the equipment for to make at the moment, but I WILL get back to where I left off, that's a promise both to myelf and to you.

I'll stick around here more often now, as it's one of the few things I have to look forward to. To be able to upload new Orchestral tracks for you to listen to, that's what I want to return to. I can't just throw away 7 years of my life. Music IS my life now and I've come to realise that.

When times are tough, I just have to keep going, for the sake of the music.